Tomorrow I will board a plane bound for Europe with my family, 2 car seats, a pack 'n play, a stroller, 7 items of checked luggage, 2 carry-on suitcases, 3 backpacks, and one incredibly large teddy bear. I suppose I could sing the words to that well known song: "I'm leaving on a jet plane, don't know when I'll be back again..."
It's surreal to consider the fact that I am leaving the United States. I've lived here my entire life and only left for about 4 hours ONCE to visit Canada. I never thought I'd visit Europe, let alone LIVE there. It's surreal to think that I won't introduce myself based on the city or state I came from, but the country. It's surreal to consider how much my life has changed over the past two months. It's crazy to think Christopher is two months old today. Things have been so busy that his little life has just flown by. Since he was born, the boys and I have stayed in 6 different houses, soon to be 7. We've lived in 4 different time zones, and will soon live in another. I haven't had time to really think about the changes. I haven't had time to cry about the changes. I haven't had time to be excited for the changes. I've been to busy to do anything but run, run, run and to try to be a mommy to my kiddos and to try to cross things off of our seemingly never-ending list. I've unpacked and repacked about seven THOUSAND times to the point that burning EVERYTHING has sounded like a happy alternative on more than one occassion. I'm looking forward to life slowing down. I'm looking forward to settling down in one place again. I'm looking forward to having a routine again. I'm grateful that I was able to spend so much time with family (though not all) and spend so much time saying goodbye to many friends (though not all). I'm thankful for the technology that will keep us connected and I'm grateful that I know this isn't a permanent goodbye.
I wonder how different life will be in three years when we are heading back to this side of the pond again. I wonder how different I will be. Life has a way of moving forward and changing us. Right now I am riding the change...
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